Baby Cherry

Good morning Cherry,

You can suck your thumb this week. I think that's pretty amazing. Daddy is telling me I should talk to you about that and ask you to stop now, then maybe you won't be a thumb sucker. I told him no :) I think it's quite adorable you can suck your thumb.

I'm feeling slightly better this week. But I'm still getting sick every morning after I shower. But at least most days I can stand up to teach. That's always very helpful. I'm telling my class on Halloween that you are coming into this world. I thought it would be better to wait until just before conferences to tell the rest of the world. My belly is getting very, very bloated. I know I'm the only one who notices, but by the end of the day, all I want is a pair of sweats. You make my tummy make very funny noises. Silly baby.

You have all your fingers and toes. AND fun for you...(because you care) you either have testicles or ovaries. Fun right?!?! Well, I'm kind of excited about it.

Well, I'm feeling pretty good today, so Momma needs to go get some stuff done around the house, it's been very neglected since you decided to make me very, very sleepy, and sick most days. But, happily, we're starting to feel better.

I love you!

Love, Mommy

Dear Raspberry

Hello My Darling Raspberry,

We went to the doctor last week to find out that you are bigger than we thought. I will be blessed to see you one week earlier than I thought (and please, don't come any earlier than that).

If you don't want to know what my body is going through, please stop reading now, I'm not going to edit this for graphic material...just FYI.

You still make me sick every morning, but I'm just getting used to it. It's the afternoons I'd like to feel good. I have bad days and good days. Yesterday was a good day, this morning and this afternoon, were bad. I really wish I could keep things down.

I got a call from the doctor telling me that I have a bacterial infection. Uh oh, that can't be good for either of us. This can lead to a bladder infection so they put us on penicillin. I don't think the penicillin is liking either of us much.

But, I did get some very very good news. My CF results came back, and they were negative. That means we never ever have to worry about passing Cystic Fibrosis to you. And that makes me very very happy. It was a huge sigh of relief for your dad and I.

I'm hoping to start feeling better soon, I'm hoping you and I can start agreeing on food and sleep :)

We go back in on Halloween for our next visit. I'm so super excited to find out if you, little raspberry, are a boy or a girl on Christmas Eve. The most amazing part of my life was seeing you and hearing your super fast heartbeat. It was 154 beats per minute. It blew me away to see your heart pulse and know that you are alive inside me.

I love you dearly!

Love - Mom

Dear Pea

Hello Little Pea, We go to the doctor on Tuesday. It took long enough to get an appointment! I'm so excited to see the hospital where you will be born and all the other fun things we have in store. You are still making mommy very, very sick. I wake up every morning and hurl, at least once, and the last couple days, it's been either before or after every meal. I'm trying to keep food down for you, but for some reason, we don't agree. I hope I start feeling better soon and you and I can get along MUCH better! I wasn't liking meat at all, but now it doesn't seem to matter what I eat, if anything, it will come back up. Little Pea, please be healthy, I'm doing what I can to give you everything. You have a brain now, and grew 3 times in size this week. I will get to see you for the first time soon. That makes me very, very happy. I love you. Love - Mommy

Dear Appleseed

Dear Baby Appleseed, You have made me very sick this week. I had to teach sitting in a chair on Friday. I enjoyed going to the botanical gardens yesterday but you made it warmer than it needed to be. You also make me want to be a vegetarian, I'm not a huge fan of meat these days. And you LOVE sweets, even when I'm fmull. I love you already, with all my heart, please stop making momma sick though. Love you, Mom

Ready or not :)

I say "ready or not" but we're ready and so excited! Last Wednesday as I was brushing my teeth, I started throwing up in the sink.  I knew there were other things going on with my body that weren't quite right... That night Anthony came home late from practice, I was sitting at the table eating dinner, ready for him to be home to run to the store with me. We grabbed stuff for Thursday's dinner and a pregnancy test.  I went home, took the test, and I didn't believe the little blue plus sign.  I figured I did it wrong and wanted my digital test to say the words. So, at 10:00 at night, I drive to Walmart, shaking, to buy a digital test. You clearly don't need 5 seconds of pee :) it said PREGNANT! All I could say was 'oh my God'. Anthony's face lit up.

This last week has been a whirlwind. I'm lucky enough to be feeling pretty darn good (until today). I went from super, super excited to mildly terrified. That 'unknown' is really starting to get into my head. The more I think, the more emotional I get. Between hormones and real feelings, I'm not sue what's legit anymore lol. It's hard right now not being able to do anything. I'll have my first official appointment in a couple weeks. I'll get an official due date, officially only one baby, all the 'official' stuff.

Right now, all I can do is sleep, be exhausted, cry annoyingly, enjoy my good days and take care of myself.  All of which I think I'm doing quite well.  I'm so very happy to begin this crazy adventure and start our growing family.

This is my outlet and journal to all the crazy that's about to happen! This wonderful crazy adventure I call my life :)

The Abstract Random individual:

I was explaining to Anthony today that I think I'm an abstract random thinker. We debated whether he thought I was abstract random or concrete random. So....I decided to take the word test. AND!!!! The results show I'm abstract random. The funny part is, it actually makes me feel better that someone has defined me.

 I believe Anthony's exact words were "see, you're not as screwed up as Shaun said you are". Yes, thank you Darling, I feel much better now :)

The Abstract Random individual:

 Dislikes routine procedures and orderliness.
  Is extremely sensitive to his/her own and others’ feelings.
  Is flexible, accepting and responds easily to change. 
 Learns well through discussion and sharing of ideas.
Is imaginative.
 Personalizes information.
 Is usually involved in many projects or interest at one time.  
Is focused on friends and relationships.  
Has a fear of not being liked.

 Abstract Random dislikes:
 Working alone
 Attending to details and giving exact answers
Working within time limits
 Concentrating on one task at a time
 Being corrected
 Expecting less emotional response from others

 Abstract Randoms prefer:
 Cooperative work
Assignments with room for interpretation
Balance of social activities and work
 Noncompetitive atmosphere
Personalized learning
 Are given personal attention and emotional support

It's frighting how much this describes me.  Anthony also found my choice of words.  Super, fantastic :) This makes me smile and makes me feel much more normal about myself :)  My emotions are clearly, perfectly normal haha.  

Thoughts and Feelings

Not too long ago, I married this wonderful man who knows me better than I know myself. He loves me with all his heart and would give me the world. I sadly don't get to see him as much as I'd like because he's always giving 100% to everything he does, but when I do, it's always worth the wait. I love you Honey! Thank you for being an amazing husband who always loves me, no matter what.