Dear Pea

Hello Little Pea, We go to the doctor on Tuesday. It took long enough to get an appointment! I'm so excited to see the hospital where you will be born and all the other fun things we have in store. You are still making mommy very, very sick. I wake up every morning and hurl, at least once, and the last couple days, it's been either before or after every meal. I'm trying to keep food down for you, but for some reason, we don't agree. I hope I start feeling better soon and you and I can get along MUCH better! I wasn't liking meat at all, but now it doesn't seem to matter what I eat, if anything, it will come back up. Little Pea, please be healthy, I'm doing what I can to give you everything. You have a brain now, and grew 3 times in size this week. I will get to see you for the first time soon. That makes me very, very happy. I love you. Love - Mommy

Dear Appleseed

Dear Baby Appleseed, You have made me very sick this week. I had to teach sitting in a chair on Friday. I enjoyed going to the botanical gardens yesterday but you made it warmer than it needed to be. You also make me want to be a vegetarian, I'm not a huge fan of meat these days. And you LOVE sweets, even when I'm fmull. I love you already, with all my heart, please stop making momma sick though. Love you, Mom

Ready or not :)

I say "ready or not" but we're ready and so excited! Last Wednesday as I was brushing my teeth, I started throwing up in the sink.  I knew there were other things going on with my body that weren't quite right... That night Anthony came home late from practice, I was sitting at the table eating dinner, ready for him to be home to run to the store with me. We grabbed stuff for Thursday's dinner and a pregnancy test.  I went home, took the test, and I didn't believe the little blue plus sign.  I figured I did it wrong and wanted my digital test to say the words. So, at 10:00 at night, I drive to Walmart, shaking, to buy a digital test. You clearly don't need 5 seconds of pee :) it said PREGNANT! All I could say was 'oh my God'. Anthony's face lit up.

This last week has been a whirlwind. I'm lucky enough to be feeling pretty darn good (until today). I went from super, super excited to mildly terrified. That 'unknown' is really starting to get into my head. The more I think, the more emotional I get. Between hormones and real feelings, I'm not sue what's legit anymore lol. It's hard right now not being able to do anything. I'll have my first official appointment in a couple weeks. I'll get an official due date, officially only one baby, all the 'official' stuff.

Right now, all I can do is sleep, be exhausted, cry annoyingly, enjoy my good days and take care of myself.  All of which I think I'm doing quite well.  I'm so very happy to begin this crazy adventure and start our growing family.

This is my outlet and journal to all the crazy that's about to happen! This wonderful crazy adventure I call my life :)