Baby Grapefruit

Our foods are getting more and more bizarre.  One app says corn, one says grapefruit.  I swear you're getting smaller.  BUT, you're over a pound and just about a foot long from head to toe.  I feel you move ALL the time and you make me smile (unless I'm trying to sleep).  You kill me at night when you're awake and I'm trying to get comfortable.  Most nights we do just fine :)

We went in for a prenatal massage yesterday, it was divine!  Except the lady kept wanting to talk.  I wanted to sleep.  I came home and felt like jello, I just wanted to crash.  We have another one that I'm planning on using sometimes in April :)

I'm getting sick...less, I think.  It's been the coldest winter EVER!  We had 3 days above freezing for a month.  It's finally getting warmer, which is nice.  It's so weird to not be cold.  Ok, 3 degrees was chilly, I'll admit that, but the 30's feel pretty darn good!

Nothing too exciting this week.  My cravings for juice are less, but fruit is still amazing!  I'm not really craving much right now.  I've gained about 14 pounds and I'm visually pregnant :) you're pretty darn cute!  And I must admit, you've been pretty kind to me as well.  I haven't blown up like a balloon...yet.

Love you sweet daughter of mine!

oh - one last crazy detail.  Your lungs are developed enough to be able to live outside me with a machine in the NICU.  I thought that was crazy!  If you were born, you could live :)  It's frightening to think about, BUT at the same time, there's more piece of mind with that as well.

Until next week!

Mommy

Dear Mango

Yup, I agree with Jen, you sound smaller than when you were a carrot/banana...

You can't get be getting smaller, that's not how it works.  I just imagine you as a ball the size of a mango, all curled up.  Yea, we'll go with that.

You're almost a pound and you are SOOO active! I love it!  We went to the doctor yesterday and had a great appointment.  I spent a lot of time talking to Nurse Julie about the last couple of months.  She's so happy to hear things are going so much better.  She also reaffirmed me that I'll like any of the delivery doctors we get.  They just always seem to be in such a big hurry.  But she promised me it will all be ok on delivery day.  She also said that we get to see her from now until delivery day.  She's our go-to gal.  She's so amazing and makes me feel important and validated in my feelings.  She was also there on that very very scary day and made the light at the end of the tunnel very bright.  She's there to look after me, and you, and make sure we have all the right people keeping track of us :) Ok, enough about Julie.

Well...A parent jinxed us this week.  She asked how I'd been staying so healthy and I went into this long explanation about how I'm not a germ-a-phobe and I've just been taking my prenatals and staying healthy.  The next night I felt that tickle in the back of my throat and could barely sleep that night because that tickle turned into a full blown sore throat.  I'm now having so much fun with congestion in my head and ears.  Luckily, I'm feeling a little better today, and it's a 3 day weekend.  I should be back in full swing by Tuesday (pre-evaluation day).

Well, daddy and I are cleaning the house today and going to shop for some bedding for you.  Hopefully then I can pick a paint color to paint your room.  It's going to be darling!  Love you Honey!  You make me smile every time I picture your cute little feet, that precious portfolio, and the thought of you in my arms.

Mommy

Baby Spaghetti Squash (I missed banana)

Hi Baby Girl!  (22 weeks)

Last week you were a combination of banana and a carrot. I guess now that you've being measured from head to feet, we have really strange long fruits and vegetables.  This has been a great and not so great couple weeks.   We'll start with the not-so-great.  We went yurting with my family.  They all started to notice the "not me" again.  I told you daddy I was glad I had an appointment soon.  All is well now, the doctors we see are so helpful and amazing at making sure you and I are healthy.

Christmas break was a lot of laziness, which I desperately needed, but we didn't get much accomplished.  Daddy finished cleaning out your room and I have a few spots painted.  I have no idea which purple I like the best.  I sat in your room before going to work this morning, staring at the wall (yea, that totally happened), I have no clue what your personality is, and it's making this very hard.

Here's the best part of my week...Daddy asked to be the first one to feel you move.  And I wouldn't take that away from him for anything.  Although, I was terrified it would happen at school and I'd be so excited I'd say something and then hands would attack me.  Luckily, we came home one night and Daddy was medicating and covering his tattoo (yup, he's tatted up and looks amazing!) when I felt you nudge me.  He came over and you quit moving.  It didn't take you long to start up again.  The first time I asked him if he felt you and he said he just felt my whole body move, you scared me.  But then you gave a few strong jabs and he was the proudest man in the world.  Thank you so much Sweetheart for making his birthday perfect!

You've been so very active since then.  Karsyn had the fantastic opportunity to feel you at her tryouts (I sorta grabbed her away from her team to do it, but that was totally worth it).  Aunt Rachel asked if you were going to be a soccer player.  I told her that daddy would be PROUD to have a softball player.  I might push you in one direction over the other, but ultimately, I'll leave that decision up to you :) I love to feel you move, kick and punch.  I even love the way you make me mildly nauseated when you turn over.  Knowing that you're strong and healthy is worth all the pain and ickiness we've got through.  I'm not going to lie, you're still making me sick at least 1/2 the mornings I get up, but it's not so bad the rest of the day (except for about 1 night a week).  It's worth it.  You're worth it.

I'm soooo addicted to fruit and fruit juice.  This is a nice change of pace from the oh-so-healthy icecream I wanted before.  I still love sweets, but fruit totally does it for me!

You're getting so big and everyone can see the bump you've given me now.  The kids at school today even said, wow, your baby must be getting big.  I've gained about 10 pounds and feel great!  I love looking down and seeing you, I love being able to feel you, I'm finally able to be in love with this pregnancy.  I hope we get to stay like this for a while.  We've go so many great people looking out for us and there are soooo many people ready to love you and spoil you.  I've already got a pile of cute clothes for you in your closet.  And a gorgeous blanket your grandma made for you.  I'm the luckiest mommy to have such a great support group of family and friends.  You will be the luckiest baby in the whole wide world.  There are so many people who already love you, especially me and your dad. 

I guess waiting 2 weeks to post makes for a lot to say.

I love you my sweet little owl,

Stay healthy and stay strong...only 4 months to go!

Love you!

Mommy