Anthony and Erin: Cauliflour

Good morning Baby Bear,

It's been a busy week of Valentine's Day parties, glucose testing, and thankfully, a long weekend. We are 27.5 weeks along and you are over 14 inches long and 2 pounds. You are so very very strong and I feel you move all the time. At our last appointment, we took our glucose test and passed :) we were also measured (I was in the middle of a conversation, so I didn't ask what we measured).

Julie told me the saddest news when she said she wasn't doing evening clinics anymore and her latest day would be 3:40. I basically begged her to keep letting me come see her. I want nothing more than to be consistent with my nurse, since I don't have a doctor. After some begging, pleading, and a little guilt trip, she told me she normally doesn't leave until 4:30 and asked what time I could be here. We are so very lucky to be able to make a 3:40 appointment every other Monday and be able to see Julie at 4:00. She said she'd tell Cara that we aren't late every Monday. I'm so happy that she's going to keep seeing us. I need something consistent in this pregnancy!!!

The weather keeps getting nicer and nicer. Every day it's above 40 outside, I realize that we're SOOOO close to this due date. And....we've done....nothing in weeks. I walked past your room yesterday and broke down for 20 min into sobs, realizing we've got very little time to be ready. It's not really THAT close, but I realize that daddy is starting softball full swing next week and time is going to be very precious. He was gone all weekend at a basketball tournament and the day we do have off together, I don't want to be working. I want to hang out with your dad, not be working and cleaning. So...that's our plan. Next week hopefully we can get some stuff done. House cleaned and your room painted. It's so incredibly cute. I can't wait to get your crib set up (but first we need to do the floors).

I'm scared baby girl. I'm scared that I won't be everything you need. I'm scared that I haven't taken the classes, read the books and kept up on all the ins and outs of what I'm "supposed to be" or "supposed to do"once you're here. But...at the same time, I also think that women have been doing this for thousands of years without books and classes. And I have a pretty good sense of children and talk to people and realize that no matter what, we'll get through this together. I love you more than you could ever imagine. I love the way to punch me, I love to watch you dance in my belly, I love to listen to your heart beat, I love looking at the picture of you from 8 weeks ago and think...oh so soon, you'll be in my arms. My precious little girl will be here, with your daddy and I, and our little family will grow to Mommy, Daddy, baby, puppy and kitty. We will be perfect and I'll fall in love with you even more.

Until next time Baby Bear,

I love you,

Mommy

ohhhh - on another note, Grandma and Grandpa Clark sent us a Valentine's card addressed to Anthony, Erin and Baby Bear :)

And Grandma Butler is in the process of planning a very cute and amazing baby shower for you.

And...daddy had a very eye opening realization of all this happening when I put baby Uriah in his arms. He's going to be the very best dad in the world!