Baby Leek

Really???  A leek?  Soon you'll be a baby, and I won't have to compare you to celery and a leek and other silly things.

It's been a crazy, crazy week.  I'd been so sick with you this last week, it's been horrible.  I couldn't keep anything down.  The doctor said he'd strip my membrane to try and move things along, I said...no thanks, not yet.  He said I'd feel better when you came into the world.  By Thursday, I couldn't even keep down liquids.  I was trying my best to do what I needed to do to keep you and I with enough nutrients to survive.  It wasn't working.  I started having contractions on Thursday afternoon at school.  They were not very severe, but close together.  I called Daddy and had him take us to the hospital.  They hooked us up to a machine, you sounded perfectly healthy, and yes, I WAS having contractions.  After walking and walking and walking around the tiny circle for an hour we were checked again.  (as soon as I walked into the little room, I hurled...again)  Still having contractions, but I wasn't in active labor.  They said I could go home and try to get some water down and stay hydrated, but if I continued to throw up, I needed to come back in.  Dad stood up for me.  He told the nurse I've been throwing up everything for days.  She talked to the doctor and they decided we were going to stay the night.

I was hooked up to an IV and given 3 bags of fluids that night.  Granny Janny and Grandpa came in that night for a few hours to visit while Daddy went home to pick up a few things and make sure we had all our "baby bags".  At that point, I was pretty sure we weren't going to meet you that night, but we weren't so sure.  The nurses were very nice and once I was rehydrated, on anti-nausea drugs, and well rested, contractions stopped.  No baby yet.  I have to admit...it was a bit frustrating being on the maternity ward, in a labor and delivery room, NOT having a baby.  I know you'll come when you're ready, but your mom is ready now!  I'm not very patient.

We went home and slept most of Friday afternoon away.  It felt amazing.  The staff at IACS was amazing and talking me through the yucky I was feeling on Thursday, and even better and getting things thrown together for a sub on Friday.  They are an amazing group of people that are going to love you so dearly!!!

Since then, you've dropped.  You found your way ever so slightly into that birth canal.  Since then, I've dilated another centimeter.  Since then, I've been to the doctor (which they were all shocked to see me) and had my membrane stripped.  Since then, you're still snuggled cozy inside me.  I was told that as long as the hot tub is turned down, I can sit in it with the jets on.  I've missed my hot tub soooo much! 

I feel so much better and I can eat again.  It's been a nice change of pace.  The next time we're in the hospital, it will be because of you, and your arrival.  I love you and you have the most special place in my heart.  Every day I wait for you, I want you more and more.  I've never loved something so much.  And soon, you'll be a someone, with a name ;)  I love you sweet girl.  Please be kind to me and try not to be too ornery right away.  I'm going back to the doctor's next week, and if you're not here, they're stripping me again...I will get you out here one way or another!!! I can't wait to meet you and look into your eyes.  I know you're not ready yet.  Please be ready soon.  I need you.

Love You Forever!!

Mommy