I've tried not to complain recently about my pregnancy. I miss the feeling that I had about a month ago when I wasn't quite so heavy, quite so big, and quite so sick. I KNOW that I will miss the feeling of you kicking and rolling around inside of me once you're here, but right now, it's making me ill. I do hope that once you're here, in the world, I will forget a lot about the sick, and heavy, and ickyness that came with being pregnant with you. I hope that I will look past all that and say, of course I want to give you a little brother or sister. I truly have every intention of that. But right now, as you roll your legs and butt inside of me, and I can't keep ANYTHING down, it seems strange to want to do this all again.
I know you'll be worth it though :)
I've said that from the beginning (well, almost the beginning).
As long as you're healthy, I don't care what I go through. I told Daddy this morning that I don't actually remember what it feels like to not be pregnant. I don't remember what "normal" feels like. What it feels like to feel good, all the time.
Well, there, my complaining is almost over. Back on track with the more important things...
I have little cravings right now, because I can't digest anything. I've lost 5 pounds in the last 2 days. Fruit is still amazing, chocolate milk is yummy if I can keep it down. Coffee makes the acid come back up... Ice cream and I didn't get along very well last night. Wow, this is pathetic. You're craving nothing. Maybe it's time to come out :) Your nursery is ready, your clothes are all washed, folded and hung. Your Aunt Kassie bought you some super cute clothes yesterday for when you get a little older. Your cradle next to our bed is all clean and ready for you. The car seat will be installed this afternoon. I have diapers ready to open (I don't know how big you are...) and put in your changing table. Daddy and I are ready for you to be here.
I guess I'm supposed to ask you to wait a few days, so that your grandparents will be back in town. So...Next weekend works great for us :)
You're due in 17 days. You are the longest I've ever waited for. You've been worth every second of waiting. I love you already. Get strong, be healthy, and come when you're ready! Just know, we're ready for you!
I love you always,
Momma
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Crenshaw Melon
My Sweet Angel!!!
I can't believe you're full term. So much fun news happened this week. We went to the doctor and Julie said that you're average in size. She's guessing you'll be about 7.5-8 pounds by the time you're here. Which is crazy, because that could be any day. Julie also said that I'm dilated 1 cm and 50% efface. I'm feeling much more healthy these days, thank you amoxicillin. I'm also in disbelief by how BIG you're getting. You're about 6 pounds and I can feel that weighing down on me.
The more I think about the actual delivery of you, the more I kinda...freak out. I'm trying not to process that part too much, because what happens will happen, and you will come out however you darn well please. Last weekend I basically decided we're ready for you to be here. And since that time, every day moves by so slowly. Time has stopped, and it's painful how slow things seem now. I can't wait for you to be here, with Daddy and I. We're so ready to meet our baby girl (please come out a girl).
I washed all your clothes and blankets too. They are so pink and adorable. You will be the best dressed girl around. All frilled out :)
Next week - I'll get to post some gorgeous maternity pictures of you, me, and Daddy. I'm so lucky that through this whole experience, that the whole time, you've been healthy. I haven't, but, you have :)
I love you with all my heart!
Mom
I can't believe you're full term. So much fun news happened this week. We went to the doctor and Julie said that you're average in size. She's guessing you'll be about 7.5-8 pounds by the time you're here. Which is crazy, because that could be any day. Julie also said that I'm dilated 1 cm and 50% efface. I'm feeling much more healthy these days, thank you amoxicillin. I'm also in disbelief by how BIG you're getting. You're about 6 pounds and I can feel that weighing down on me.
The more I think about the actual delivery of you, the more I kinda...freak out. I'm trying not to process that part too much, because what happens will happen, and you will come out however you darn well please. Last weekend I basically decided we're ready for you to be here. And since that time, every day moves by so slowly. Time has stopped, and it's painful how slow things seem now. I can't wait for you to be here, with Daddy and I. We're so ready to meet our baby girl (please come out a girl).
I washed all your clothes and blankets too. They are so pink and adorable. You will be the best dressed girl around. All frilled out :)
Next week - I'll get to post some gorgeous maternity pictures of you, me, and Daddy. I'm so lucky that through this whole experience, that the whole time, you've been healthy. I haven't, but, you have :)
I love you with all my heart!
Mom
Friday, April 12, 2013
Baby Cantaloupe/Honeydew
I have NO clue where the days are going. I was only a few days behind, and then suddenly, it's Friday of the next week and I'm behind on my posting. So, sadly, once again, I'm having to double up weeks.
Hi Baby Girl! Things have been so crazy busy lately, I've barely had time to breathe. Actually, quite literally. We've had lots of appointment this week. Let's back up and start with last week.
I lost my voice on Friday and was miserable at school all day. We made it through, but it was a rough day. I tried to get as much sleep as I could on Friday night because Saturday we had out beautiful baby shower put on my Grandma and Grandpa Butler. I had intended to have a lot more done before Saturday morning, but I'd been so sick all week, I couldn't hardly move. Luckily, you have awesome grandparents who are willing to step in and help. You got the most beautiful array of clothes, towels, blankets and other fun things. We are getting so close to having all your "needs" met. Ok, technically, we've already got everything; a car seat, diapers (LOTS of diapers), onsies, and a cradle. You're good to go, at least for the first few weeks :)
I just laid around all day on Sunday hoping to feel better. Every morning we woke up, was just like the morning before, miserable. Finally, Monday afternoon I called the doctor. She said to go into Dr. Miller. I'm glad she got to see us :) she's so sweet. We've been on antibiotics for 3 days and things are looking up! I can talk (sorta) again, and breathe! We also got to go to the dentist. I'm sad Dr. Widdison wasn't there to see us. I guess he'll have to wait until October.
I can't believe how fast the last few weeks have gone. With baseball, softball, full weekends, nice weather and everything else Spring had to offer, the days just fly by. I'm huge...I don't care what anyone else says, you're getting SOOO big. I'm not saying that I'm fat or anything, but you stick WAY out there and you walk into the room before I do. You push your butt around all the time. I can feel your little feet hit up around my ribs, I feel your elbow stick out down by my hips and all I can do is smile. I love being able to feel the little human you've become inside me. I can feel all your parts and pieces. I have thoughts of what you'll look like, but nothing ever very clear. I can not wait to meet you and hold you in my arms. I love you so much already, I can't imagine how I could love you more when you're here, in my arms. When I can look into your eyes, kiss your head, breathe in your smell and love you with all my heart. Daddy and I are so lucky to have our daughter here in the next month. We're so lucky that, as far as anyone can tell, you're a healthy little girl. We're so lucky that the complications we've had with pregnancy haven't effected you. Just me. I can't wait to hold my little girl. If you came today, you'd have no long term side effects. You'd be healthy in a few days. You're a little human inside there. The feeling of anxious, nervous, excitement, terrified, all mixed together is what makes this all so amazing and wonderful. I wish you could only understand how much everyone already loves you. Everyone. There is not a person out there who doesn't already have a spot for you in their heart. You have the most amazing family, the most amazing friends, the most amazing doctors, the most amazing support system of any baby I've met. Grow up to be a good girl. If you learn anything from your mom, it's this...learn from your mistakes and make better ones next time. Be honest. Be caring. And most of all, be laid back. Don't let little things get to you. Now...I'm not always good at the last one. But I try. Be a friend. Be a good listener. Be loyal. Be you!!! And...it's ok to get what you want sometimes :) You'll learn that from me too.
Ok, I'm ranted enough. We're super duper lucky to have an amazing photographer come take our picture this weekend. Hopefully, we can get another great photographer to get a few more pictures of us as well :) See how lucky we are to know great people!??!? If you only knew Sweetheart, if you only knew how amazing the people are in this world and how much everyone already cares about you! I guess I'm pretty lucky too...
I love you!
Momma
It makes me sad to think of all the women in this world who have lost children at this point in their pregnancy. If I lost you now, I'm not sure I'd be ok for a very, very long time. I need to know you're healthy and ok.
Hi Baby Girl! Things have been so crazy busy lately, I've barely had time to breathe. Actually, quite literally. We've had lots of appointment this week. Let's back up and start with last week.
I lost my voice on Friday and was miserable at school all day. We made it through, but it was a rough day. I tried to get as much sleep as I could on Friday night because Saturday we had out beautiful baby shower put on my Grandma and Grandpa Butler. I had intended to have a lot more done before Saturday morning, but I'd been so sick all week, I couldn't hardly move. Luckily, you have awesome grandparents who are willing to step in and help. You got the most beautiful array of clothes, towels, blankets and other fun things. We are getting so close to having all your "needs" met. Ok, technically, we've already got everything; a car seat, diapers (LOTS of diapers), onsies, and a cradle. You're good to go, at least for the first few weeks :)
I just laid around all day on Sunday hoping to feel better. Every morning we woke up, was just like the morning before, miserable. Finally, Monday afternoon I called the doctor. She said to go into Dr. Miller. I'm glad she got to see us :) she's so sweet. We've been on antibiotics for 3 days and things are looking up! I can talk (sorta) again, and breathe! We also got to go to the dentist. I'm sad Dr. Widdison wasn't there to see us. I guess he'll have to wait until October.
I can't believe how fast the last few weeks have gone. With baseball, softball, full weekends, nice weather and everything else Spring had to offer, the days just fly by. I'm huge...I don't care what anyone else says, you're getting SOOO big. I'm not saying that I'm fat or anything, but you stick WAY out there and you walk into the room before I do. You push your butt around all the time. I can feel your little feet hit up around my ribs, I feel your elbow stick out down by my hips and all I can do is smile. I love being able to feel the little human you've become inside me. I can feel all your parts and pieces. I have thoughts of what you'll look like, but nothing ever very clear. I can not wait to meet you and hold you in my arms. I love you so much already, I can't imagine how I could love you more when you're here, in my arms. When I can look into your eyes, kiss your head, breathe in your smell and love you with all my heart. Daddy and I are so lucky to have our daughter here in the next month. We're so lucky that, as far as anyone can tell, you're a healthy little girl. We're so lucky that the complications we've had with pregnancy haven't effected you. Just me. I can't wait to hold my little girl. If you came today, you'd have no long term side effects. You'd be healthy in a few days. You're a little human inside there. The feeling of anxious, nervous, excitement, terrified, all mixed together is what makes this all so amazing and wonderful. I wish you could only understand how much everyone already loves you. Everyone. There is not a person out there who doesn't already have a spot for you in their heart. You have the most amazing family, the most amazing friends, the most amazing doctors, the most amazing support system of any baby I've met. Grow up to be a good girl. If you learn anything from your mom, it's this...learn from your mistakes and make better ones next time. Be honest. Be caring. And most of all, be laid back. Don't let little things get to you. Now...I'm not always good at the last one. But I try. Be a friend. Be a good listener. Be loyal. Be you!!! And...it's ok to get what you want sometimes :) You'll learn that from me too.
Ok, I'm ranted enough. We're super duper lucky to have an amazing photographer come take our picture this weekend. Hopefully, we can get another great photographer to get a few more pictures of us as well :) See how lucky we are to know great people!??!? If you only knew Sweetheart, if you only knew how amazing the people are in this world and how much everyone already cares about you! I guess I'm pretty lucky too...
I love you!
Momma
It makes me sad to think of all the women in this world who have lost children at this point in their pregnancy. If I lost you now, I'm not sure I'd be ok for a very, very long time. I need to know you're healthy and ok.
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
Pineapple
Baby Girl!!!!! I have no idea where the last week went! I can't believe it's Wednesday already and I'm behind a week on my posts. Well, even though you're not a pineapple anymore, I'm going to still write this post to you.
I know for one thing, we were VERY busy last week! We had a great time in Arizona. I learned a few things. First, I never want a summer baby. 88 degrees was plenty warm enough for the both of us. And with that, came a very nasty day. I woke up in the morning with a fever trying to convince myself that it was just a sunburn from the day before. Yea...right...
Well, we went to the Mariner's game and bought the "all you can eat" tickets. I have a hamburger, soda and water. I was keeping myself hydrated and staying out of the sun. But, I couldn't sit in the shade, so I went out on the grass to sit with Daddy. The sun hit me hard. I laid my head down on your daddy's lap and started to cough, that cough turned into a gag, which turned into Mommy throwing up on Daddy. Luckily, you have the most wonderful dad in the whole world, because even though he's having to clean himself and the grass up, he's still worried about me and you. The awful thing about being pregnant (and this far along) is that I can't control all my bodily functions. Your daddy took me to the bathroom and I lost it...I'm wanting to apologize profusely to the person in the stall next to me. After heaving everything I'd eaten, and having my pretty dress bring wet with the puddle that's ran down my leg, I'm a complete mess. Once again...you have a very, very kind dad. He took me back to the hotel and didn't see me as gross as I saw myself at that point. He's amazing. No one could ever love me the way he does. You're such a lucky little girl.
Moving on!!!! The rest of the trip was fantastic. Swimming is an amazing thing when you're pregnant and I wish I would have taken advantage of it more. I also don't want to sit in a car for 11 hours for a very, very long time. That's a long time to have to not be able to move around, and my tailbone agrees.
You're almost 5 pounds and getting very squished inside me. You still move around quite a bit and I can feel all your hard parts push out of my tummy, like your little feet and bum. I dream about you almost every night. I've given you names of my cousins, you're talked the first day you came home, I only spent 2 hours in the hospital with you after I "coughed" you out, and even you Uncle David dreamed you were a ferret. We're all so excited for you to get here so we can know you're name and see your gorgeous face!
I love you Baby Bear!
Your nursery looks AMAZING!!!! and is almost done. We have a baby shower this weekend.
oh, and finally, you still love chocolate milk :)
With all my heart and soul, I give you everything I have!!!
I love you!
Mommy
I know for one thing, we were VERY busy last week! We had a great time in Arizona. I learned a few things. First, I never want a summer baby. 88 degrees was plenty warm enough for the both of us. And with that, came a very nasty day. I woke up in the morning with a fever trying to convince myself that it was just a sunburn from the day before. Yea...right...
Well, we went to the Mariner's game and bought the "all you can eat" tickets. I have a hamburger, soda and water. I was keeping myself hydrated and staying out of the sun. But, I couldn't sit in the shade, so I went out on the grass to sit with Daddy. The sun hit me hard. I laid my head down on your daddy's lap and started to cough, that cough turned into a gag, which turned into Mommy throwing up on Daddy. Luckily, you have the most wonderful dad in the whole world, because even though he's having to clean himself and the grass up, he's still worried about me and you. The awful thing about being pregnant (and this far along) is that I can't control all my bodily functions. Your daddy took me to the bathroom and I lost it...I'm wanting to apologize profusely to the person in the stall next to me. After heaving everything I'd eaten, and having my pretty dress bring wet with the puddle that's ran down my leg, I'm a complete mess. Once again...you have a very, very kind dad. He took me back to the hotel and didn't see me as gross as I saw myself at that point. He's amazing. No one could ever love me the way he does. You're such a lucky little girl.
Moving on!!!! The rest of the trip was fantastic. Swimming is an amazing thing when you're pregnant and I wish I would have taken advantage of it more. I also don't want to sit in a car for 11 hours for a very, very long time. That's a long time to have to not be able to move around, and my tailbone agrees.
You're almost 5 pounds and getting very squished inside me. You still move around quite a bit and I can feel all your hard parts push out of my tummy, like your little feet and bum. I dream about you almost every night. I've given you names of my cousins, you're talked the first day you came home, I only spent 2 hours in the hospital with you after I "coughed" you out, and even you Uncle David dreamed you were a ferret. We're all so excited for you to get here so we can know you're name and see your gorgeous face!
I love you Baby Bear!
Your nursery looks AMAZING!!!! and is almost done. We have a baby shower this weekend.
oh, and finally, you still love chocolate milk :)
With all my heart and soul, I give you everything I have!!!
I love you!
Mommy
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