Jicama

Or...as I told Jen Ji-caca.  You daughter, are a very ugly food this week.  But, I'm sure you're still adorable!

We made it to the Grand Canyon - We enjoyed the sleep!  I have been the driver since arriving to Phoenix, but I'll get more into that in a bit.

 

You, Daddy and I standing at Glenn Canyon before the BIG canyon.  I love that I love my "bum" and Daddy's says 2...he must love him bum too :)

 I decided you might want to be born at the Grand Canyon. So, I stood on the sign and tried to birth you.  It didn't really work - thank goodness!  You need to stay in there a little bit longer.

I love feeling you move around.  Sometimes you flip over and over and it makes me crazy to think you're so squished in there!  I met a really nice lady today at the Spring Training Team Shop that thinks you're pretty great too.  You're such a sweet girl, I can't wait the next 7 week (I have no idea how I'm supposed to stretch 7 weeks more), to have you here, in my arms. 

The beginning of our trip was a little sad because Daddy got very, very sick.  He gave the driving over to me from going to the Grand Canyon to Phoenix.  Since then, he's still been sick.  He stayed in bed the first 2 days we were here in Arizona.  I feel so sad that he's been cooped up on the hotel room and not out enjoying this beautiful sun.  He's starting to feel better, and came to join us today in our baseball adventures.  Our trip has been amazing so far!  You're quite large, and I love that you'll be here soon.  Also!!!!!! Your floors are done in your room as of today!!! We'll be able to put the crib together as soon as we get home! YAY!!!

Until next time Baby Girl!

I love you!
Mommy

Melon

Well Roger - this week is for you...
My first app says she's 4 navel oranges, one app says she's a bunch of asparagus, and the last?!?!? A small melon :)

I had to tell my nurse this week that I "wasn't" driving to Arizona this week.  She told me last month that she didn't want to know we were driving.  I promised to stay hydrated and get out and walk at every stop.  This week has been pretty typical.  Dr. appointment, movement, crazy kids, and it's almost Spring Break! 

I'm feeling quite large and "in charge".  I had 4 random people this week ask when I was due.  It made me happy that people actually can TELL I'm having a baby.  Mom, Rachel and I went stroller shopping today.  It was the most fun I've had shopping in a long time :)  Rachel felt the need to run with all the strollers because we looked mostly at "jogging" strollers.  All I cared about was the all-terrain. And happily, our car seat will fill in it too (at least it should, "we" have to set it up first). 

I was feeling motivated yesterday morning and finished the trim in the nursery, except for the purple down the sides.  I guess I should get that finished this week so we can get the hardwood started next week.  I pray this all works out!

Just for fun - here is Appa with his bestest friend Mackey

too much thinking

I don't sleep anymore.  Not because I'm not tired, I am...I just toss and turn to get comfortable and then, once awake, I think.

Last night I thought about our baby shower and how maybe after that I'll be able to relax a little.  I thought about the hardwood floors and I'm praying we can get them scheduled before we leave for Spring Break.  I thought about a little girl in my arms and was terrified I'm not cut out for this.  I've wanted to start this family and have a little baby to call our child since we got married.  The timing was perfect.  We have been married for almost 5 years.  Not that it's ever perfect, but it's as good as a time as any.  And now that it's here, I'm scared.  I'm afraid of the delivery, I'm afraid of her first cough, I'm afraid she won't eat, I'm afraid there will be something wrong, something missing.  I'm afraid of the day I have to leave her and return back to work.  I'm also afraid she might come out a he...

I'm afraid my dog won't love her.  I'm afraid my dog won't love me (this goes to for my darling cat too).  I know I have a ton of people around me.  No one will let us fail at this.  I have a huge and amazing support system.  I just worry things won't go right.  In my life...things are always a little too interesting.  The beginning of this pregnancy was all too interesting.  I'm afraid of the rearranging of hormones in my body and what that will do to me...again...

I'm excited for life to change.  I would hope it would!  There is another human in our life that we are responsible for.  Nothing will ever.......ever be the same.

I've lived life doing what I want.  I've lived that motto since I was little.  I realize that's not going to happen anymore.  It can't.  I do what she needs.  That's my motto.  What does my daughter need?  and how can I get her what she needs?  I've been quite the selfish girl for so long, I know I can give that up, but let's be honest...it's not going to be the easiest thing I've ever done.  Of course I will do it for her!!! She's my daughter, I'm her mother, my life is now all about her, forever, and ever. 

And this is why I don't sleep.  I can't shut it off.  I have lesson plans to write, things to buy, a house to clean, a budget to keep...and I'm trying to keep it all in order, and keep my life sane, relationships sane, and maybe even myself sane.  And...it's hard. 

It's hard to be a good friend when I can't get my own crap together.  It's hard to be there for other people when I just want to be selfish and worry about me.  Throw myself some sort of pity party.  Don't get me wrong, I'm sooo happy, I just have a lot going on in my head.  Every day goes by faster and faster, each week gets shorter and shorter, and there's so much more to think about, worry about, and I find myself stressing about all the dumb small stuff.

Also - I love chocolate milk!  I'm addicted to it and drink almost 1,000 calories of chocolate milk a day (don't judge).

Betsy - this is for you

ok - ok - I'm a little behind!!!

the rules are:

1. Post 11 random things about myself. 

2. Answer the 11 questions my nominator asked me. 
3. Create 11 questions for my own nominees.

4. Nominate 11 different bloggers with fewer than 200 followers.

5. Notify them and hope they play along.

11 random things about me:

1 - I love my job teaching kids - sometimes I'd be happy teaching older kids.
2 - I think my family is the best in the whole world.
3 - I'm addicted to ice cream right now (and usually, but mostly now, while I'm preggo).
4 - I'm suuuuuuper excited to be a mom.
5 - I'm suuuuuuuper behind on getting my baby stuff ready.
6 - I know more about Halo than I should.
7 - I dream about drinking alcohol, probably because I can't.
8 - I love shopping for new clothes, anywhere, as long as it's a good deal.
9 - I can't wait for yard saling to begin again...especially with this new darling coming along.
10 - I have amazing friends who care for me an insane amount!
11 - I'm a HUGE procrastinator....huge...never marry a procrastinator when you procrastinate...

11 questions my nominator asked:

1. if you could live anywhere in the world for a year, where would you? Italy

2. what is the first thing you notice about another person? Facial features

3. what is a quality you wished you possessed? motivation to finish projects I've started

4. if you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be? potatoes!!!! I can fix them a billion different ways

5. if you had to pick only flossing your teeth for the rest of your life or brushing your teeth, which would you pick? brushing...for sure

6. what is your dream job? I'm living it.  I love my kids!!!!

7. are you a morning person or a night owl? uhhh right now...neither.  I love sleep - but probably a night owl

8. what do you do to relax? take a bath and/or drink coffee.  Cooking can be relaxing too.

9. if you had a million dollars to spend on someone else, who would you spend it on and what would you buy? Only one person?!?!?!?! Is is selfish to pick my husband?  I would want to pay off all his student loans and make sure his (our) babies are set up for life, financially stable.

10. what is something you wish you were better at? art - especially teaching in an arts school.

11. what is your favorite thing about yourself? my laid-backness.  I'm pretty darn easy going (for the most part)

ok - too lazy to finish....fail!!!!

Cabbage

Too bad our foods are getting more and more...lame.

Ok Baby Bear, you're almost 3 pounds and it's so strange to think about the fact that you'll probably grow 3 times the size you are now in the next 10 weeks.  Yes, darling, 10 more weeks.

Daddy said to me the other day "I can't wait to hold her in my arms".  It made me happy to think of Daddy holding you, talking to you, and loving you.  Last week he laid his head on my tummy and heard your beating heart.  It does make me sad though, that he doesn't get to feel you every day the way I do.  When we were at the doctor last week, Julie to me that your back is to my back and you're sitting up and down.  It's very hard to hear your beating heart now.  You've moved into a strange position that it feels like you're trying to stand up inside of me.  I can't feel you kick on the outside anymore, just push down on me.  This morning you were up in my ribs again though.  Every couple days, you're all moved around :)

Standing up is like having a bowling ball dropped on my pelvis.  You're getting so big!

Last weekend Grandma, Grandpa, and Uncle Mikey came over to help around the house.  You're gorgeous room is almost painted (thanks to Grandma), I don't have to bend over to do laundry anymore, thanks to Daddy, Grandpa, and Uncle Mike (but lucky  me...my dryer died).

You're coming into such a great family!  We already love you dearly!!!

You'll be here so soon :) I can't wait!!!

Love you Baby Girl!

Love, Mommy